I am educated, beyond the Masters level. However, I am not a diagnostician, psychologist, or psychiatrist. As a result I use All terms, especially, narcissist and codependent in the most NONCLINICAL way. While I may not be educated in the behavioral sciences, my ongoing relationships with people that continued to hurt me, and my compulsion to gravitate toward them, raised far too many questions for me to ignore. With the help of a qualified therapist, supportive family, friends, and personal research I began a quest of self-discovery. The trip was humbling, and many times the information painful. However difficult, like it or not, standing in the light of my own self-awareness there came an unyielding blinding, yet healing force of clarity. I am a single mother, and a freelance writer; working to understand the driving force of addiction to abuse.